Puscifer ~ the Green valley is my new favorite song.

Last night Nov. 9^th of 2011 the Puscifer concert was at the Capitol Theater in SLC and after walking from a long echoing parking garage we stood in line to get in. Polishing off a flask of Jack Daniels my buddy Rick had brought to keep us warm. We finally get in to be frisked by security. We headed up the long, almost 100 year old staircase. Our seats were in the “nose bleed” section, but a capacity of 1300 there is no horrible seat. We sat down…. Now right here I am not going to tell you a lick of what the show was about but rather where the show took me. And seriously it was quite a ride... I walked out the theater at 10:30 last night and I'm still in the zone..... The dude (Maynard James Keenan) is amazing. His band could hold the weight of the universe on their shoulders. But really.. If the world were to be attacked by Demon monkeys from outer space and the only thing that could save the whole earth is kick ass music.... My vote is for all 6 of them to be there.... They threw out so much energy it was hard for me to sit still in my seat...... But the stage crew made the show also.... The lighting was just as much as an emotional ride as the music... Plus add the romance of the Capitol Theater stage.. The show as nothing less than epic.... And I know the term "epic" is thrown around these days like a old shoe.. But I mean epic as in the term explained in Webster. I did find some parts a little drug out making them boring but when taken into the show as a whole. I wouldn't change a thing. I like to think of the show similar to the movie "Paranormal Activity". In a way the movie was good. And it had its scary parts but when it was over you walked out the theater thinking it was a good movie... But it wasn't till you got home late at night until you really noticed the movie's effect on you... Every sound and shadow started to raise the hairs on the back of your neck. I remember walking down the stairs thinking..."wow"... But that was it... My mind hadn't wrapping around it completely yet. But then this morning I started to play the CD "condition of my parole" again... My mind started working again realizing really how great of a show it was. This is one show I will never miss again... And it’s a show you all should see at least once. Now I cannot say you would feel the same way I did. But for me it was everything I love about music, art, and the human experience. Lol. Sounds like a lot but really this is the only way I can explain it to make sense to anyone was not in my mind, listening with my ears, looking with eyes, and feeling the bass beat hitting my chest... Really I can go on and on... But my words couldn't justify it. It was a good show. But for me every piece of a puzzle was in place. The sound, the lights, the stage, the characters, my mood, and a huge part was my mind not knowing what to expect... And from what I hear Maynard keeps changing everything up so you will never get the same show. That is all I have to say about it right now… 

Peace, love and happiness to all of you.

The Bottomless Abyss

 This is a old story I posted on Facebook. Well its relevance has sprung up again.

"My Friend Keith Allmon wrote on his wall " Separated from you by a mere two feet of empty air... separated by a bottomless abyss I have no bridge to cross..." Very poetic and power statement. I am unsure in what context he use it in. But I took it as words to a loved one. Words stating We are so close but the distance may well be miles away.
Well then my mind starts turning on. My synapse are firing as if my mind were a Christmas tree on Christmas eve. I start thinking about the many situations I have been in where I could have used these very words. Then I start to think that almost every relationship can use these words at some point in time. My focus moves to the part where he states "I have no bridge to cross..." It strikes a chord in me... A chord that rings so true it is scary. That line hurts me. It hurts the loved one. However it also protects me. It says "I want to be close to you. But as you see I have no bridge to get to you." It reminds me of a simple line I wrote years ago saying "Let me open the little cracks that separate us so I can make impossible to love you." I remember it so well because I lived it so well.

Well as you all know if you know me, I have been trying to turn a new leaf for a while now. So now I am thinking of the line "I have no bridge to cross..." My mind thinks "Jump". Run as fast as you can and try to jump over that bottomless abyss... So I had a chance once..... I ran toward it as fast as I could... I closed my eyes and as soon as I hit the edge I jumped as hard as I could.... Well folks I didn't make it.. It never worked out. Everything I saw on that other side disappeared... It was long gone. But as soon as I was done mourning the loss, I noticed that the scene had changed. I was falling.. It was scary. I felt out of control. but I realized that this is a bottomless abyss. it has no end. I can fall for the rest of my life. And furthermore there are people here falling with me. I can find myself easily being next to them in love because there is no longer a gap between what I want and what they want. Now the obstacle and the art is falling with each other at the same speed. And holding on so we don't drift apart....

Wow I fell pretty damn lucky and enlightened right now.... And if anyone reads this long ass note in it entirety I hope you feel somewhat the same way.... Please comment your thoughts and share."